As I begin this month’s reflection, I sit with many emotions. Some good and some bad. Waiting for the weight of the world to lighten up and show me the right direction to move towards. Trying to listen to the whispers of the wind, find meaning in the hours of mellow tunes I have listened to or absorb any sunlight I can get a glimpse of. Something and anything to reassure me that everything will be how it needs to be. But that’s the funny thing with life, I think, that when we need it the most, it seems to test us in the cruellest ways.
I am coming to believe very slowly that the biggest fight isn’t convincing someone to love you the way we need – parents, partners, friends, whoever – but losing the battle within us that we need them more than we need us. Many of the insecurities we face and the triggers that anoint us to the version of ourselves we don’t like are because we are scared to face a perspective that puts us in a bad light. Truths that not all humans are prepared to face – showing us who we really are! As that statement stands, true reflection means immense pain. This goes for our journeys, and we hope that the ones we care about can also have the strength to do so as well.
I share this piece with you all today in hopes that it shows that the souls we think have reached the end of the journey you so desperately want that they can also break. Emotions are tricky, regardless of whether you let yourself feel the utmost pain or joy or simply ignore it. They take over an inch of our body and question all that has come to pass, and all that is yet to happen. But somehow, in every breath, we take to calm our anxiety, we give ourselves the best possible ending. The gift that one thing we can always count on is us! PS: This image, for me, is an accurate representation of how I visualize life. A BEAUTIFUL STORM. The beauty of what hope represents in the warmest colours and a bad storm coming out of the left field like a shadow in the darkness.
